My heart is heavy.

It is with a heavy heart that I write tonight. For the last 5 days I have been listening to news reports of a crazed gunman killing innocent people. First in Portland at Clackamas Town Center, which is less than 50 miles from my home and then yesterday in Newtown, Connecticut @ Sandy Hook Elementary School. My heart breaks for the families of the 20 children and the 6 women that were killed yesterday as well as the man and woman who died in Portland this week at the mall.

I think I’m bothered more by the fact that once the media coverage dies down that those of us who are far removed from these incidents will forget and go on with our lives while those parents and people who have lost someone will never be the same again. I’m not saying that we shouldn’t go on with our lives or that we should live in paralyzing fear but I wish there was some kind of change in people that would come from this. A heart change.

I wish that people would fall on their faces before God and repent of their wicked ways before this Country who was founded on FAITH IN GOD finds itself in much greater torment than it is already in.

America is on the brink of financial disaster, there are people going on killing sprees, children killing there parents and grandparents, parents killing their kids, husbands and wives killing each other not to mention other countries that are just waiting for us to destroy ourselves so they could take over. WAKE UP AMERICA! WAKE UP CHURCH! What is it going to take to bring us to the end of ourselves and on our knees before the Almighty God who rains on the just and the unjust?

Psalm 123
I lift my eyes to you, O God, enthroned in Heaven. We keep looking to the Lord our God for his mercy, just as servants keep their eyes on their master, as a slave girl watches her mistress for the slightest signal. Have mercy on us, Lord, have mercy, for we have had our fill of contempt. We have had more than our full of the scoffing of the proud and the contempt of the arrogant.

(Lord, comfort the families in Connecticut while they grieve the loss of their loved ones.)

6 thoughts on “My heart is heavy.

  1. Shelly says:

    Our only response as believers is to cry out to God. May we not get caught up in the finger pointing and blaming but turn to the Lord.
    2 Chronicles 7:14
     if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.

  2. Lizzy says:

    I like the way you summed up so much emotion (a healthy anger?) in the truth of what had happened. I find myself at this time not being able to fully bring my prayers regarding this tragedy to God. I am a mix of emotions. Yes, I am angered about this. Yes, It brings a tear to my eye. But what I really find difficult is the fact that it all sits deep within me as if I had lost someone in that incident. Perhaps I have lost a grip on my emotions to some degree because I don’t know how to feel about all this senseless violence. All any of us can do at this point is pray and lean on God for all understanding and healing.

  3. jannatwrites says:

    “A heart change”…I like that. I think it is long overdue.

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