Wow! Today has been rough. I am emotionally drained and raw. I had to dismiss a young lady today from program. My first dismissal. This young lady is the mirror image of who I once was and now she is trying to hang on to her sobriety and is determined in her heart to make it. However, there was a bump in the road yesterday and she committed a safety violation which is grounds for immediate dismissal. She can return Monday for a team meeting to determine if she can return to program. Having said all that…. The part that is so hard is…. I don’t even know at this point what I’m trying to say. I hurt because she hurts. It’s like I’m watching myself going through the pain all over again. I hated telling her she had to leave. I know God has a plan in all this. I know He knows right where she is and what it’s going to take to move her forward. It’s just hard to watch. I remember all to well the pain I felt during my growth in the beginning of my sobriety. Please remember to pray for those who are broken and trying to figure out how to become what God designed them to be. The homeless, addicted, the lost little ones out there who don’t have it within themselves to believe it could ever be different.
Thanks for sharing my burden.