Saying goodbye…


We said goodbye to another friend on Nov. 2nd. Him and his wife were a part of our homeless family when we were homeless. They had finally gotten off the streets and gotten sober in Jan. of this year. Bret was in dire need of a new liver but knew his chances of getting one were slim to none. He went in for heart surgery to patch a hole and put a couple of stints in some blocked valves about 4 wks. ago. Surgery went well but he had a bleed somewhere so was opened back up. He never woke back up completely. He was on the respirator for all but a few days. His kidneys failed, his lungs collapsed, then he started bleeding again, finally he got pneumonia.
All the while his wife was by his side. She clung on to hope. She had a hard time understanding what the doctors were talking about and didn’t know what questions to ask. She had only 2 friends that would visit Bret in ICU and 1 or 2 friends that were there for her exclusively. She struggled to make decisions about what measures she should or shouldn’t take. Her and Bret never talked about a death plan. They were together for 20 yrs. and all but this last year was homeless and drunk. Christine finally had to choose wether or not to take him off life support. The hardest decision she has ever had to make. Bret told her before he went into surgery that he had his teeth fixed, now his heart was getting fixed and he was ready to go to heaven. Yes, he was saved. So he has gone home to be with Jesus. Christine is struggling and as far as I know hasn’t had a drink. I don’t want to see her end up back out on the street. Please pray for her.
During this time, my husband and I have thought about two things in particular. First, how grateful we are for our health. We are immensely blessed and don’t deserve to be as healthy as we are because of the lifestyle we led in the past. Truly, if you knew everything, you would understand when I say we are walking-talking miracles. The second and because of the first thought, why does God bless some with good health and not others? How does He choose which ones get to live and which ones get to die? I mean really? Please don’t get me wrong! WE ARE GRATEFUL! I just wonder how I get to be one of the lucky ones and I know it’s not about luck… It’s about Grace… Much Grace.

Sometimes life just sucks!!!


I don’t even know where to start. Some real life stuff is happening and I am fighting such deep anger. We (my husband and I) are being attacked in every direction. My step-daughter, whom I love dearly, is battling with her mother right now to regain custody of her 10 year old daughter. Our granddaughter was going to live with us for the school year to help out her mom and fiancĂ© until they were able to get into a bigger house. They have 5 kids all together. Our daughter’s mother decided to keep our granddaughter after a visit. Now we are in a huge custody battle. She is saying all kinds of evil things against us. Please play for my family during this time. Our plates are full and Im still in school trying to finish my bachelors degree,while being a wife, mom, grandma and student, and this is very painful for my husband as this is his daughter and granddaughter we are fighting for and his ex we are dealing with. My family appreciates it very much.

Blessings