Wow! Today has been rough. I am emotionally drained and raw. I had to dismiss a young lady today from program. My first dismissal. This young lady is the mirror image of who I once was and now she is trying to hang on to her sobriety and is determined in her heart to make it. However, there was a bump in the road yesterday and she committed a safety violation which is grounds for immediate dismissal. She can return Monday for a team meeting to determine if she can return to program. Having said all that…. The part that is so hard is…. I don’t even know at this point what I’m trying to say. I hurt because she hurts. It’s like I’m watching myself going through the pain all over again. I hated telling her she had to leave. I know God has a plan in all this. I know He knows right where she is and what it’s going to take to move her forward. It’s just hard to watch. I remember all to well the pain I felt during my growth in the beginning of my sobriety. Please remember to pray for those who are broken and trying to figure out how to become what God designed them to be. The homeless, addicted, the lost little ones out there who don’t have it within themselves to believe it could ever be different.
Thanks for sharing my burden.
Graduation is upon me. This coming Saturday in fact. If you have read my testimony you know this is a HUGE accomplishment. I think it’s just starting to set in and part of the reason is because I just had a job interview at a women’s shelter here in town as a Program Counselor. The Lord has brought me a great distance in the last 6 years.
In fact, six years ago right at this moment I was addicted to Meth, I was an I.V. drug user. I actually used meth, cocaine, heroine, anything that got me high and would allow me to escape the homeless lifestyle I was living. I sold my body, stole from department stores, hustled like crazy to make money for dope. My husband and I lived on the creek. We had a pretty cool camp, not like most of the homeless that lived around us who had been out there and never really expected to get off the streets. We knew there was a call on our lives and living on the street wouldn’t last forever but sometimes it felt like forever.
Fast forward, here it is April 29, 2013 and Saturday May 4th I will graduate with a Bachelors in Psychology and Counseling, just had my first job interview and I am no longer dependent on my State for any kind of assistance (not that that is bad, because we needed the assistance for a while).
WOW is how I feel. God is so AWESOME and this is where I have wanted to be my entire life but never thought it would happen and certainly not this fast. I am grateful beyond words. This has been a divine journey and I’m excited beyond words at what is to come. I will be returning to school in the fall to get my Masters Degree in Counseling.
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.